Somethings Never Leave.

I am tired of thinking.
Thinking that everything will be ok.
Everytime I turn around.
It is there.
I never expected it to go away.
But never thought it would be this crazy.
I am glad you were there for me.
I am glad you are here for me.

I hate this feeling.
The feeling of being alone.
Knowing I am not.
Does not change anything.

I have said this before.
But I will never stop.
I love you.

The Process Of Growing Up.

There is only so much you can take.
Day after Day.
It gets crazy.
They never stop.
Honestly?

There comes a time where the kid is supposed to fly from their nest.
Most of them do it nicely.
Me?
I am just going to take a shit on the floor before I leave.

As I said before.
The joys of life just keep on giving.

She says one thing.
but does another.

Thanks.

Know Your Abc's!

Life keeps going.
I keep moving.
Faces keep changing.
But the eyes stay the same.

People move on.
Some just really don't.

It is hard to say it.
But it must be done.
Closure is nice.
Maybe later, some fun.

The Thoughts Are Always There

My mind goes crazy. I can't control it.
It travels like crazy.
It goes on road trips.
And it is hard to get it back.
I don't want it to be like this.

Everyday, it seems to build up.
The numb feeling comes and goes.
Gets more stressful as it continues.

I have always wanted you in my life.
The way it ended sucked.
Maybe it will be for the best?

Songs play. I think of you.
your picture is still in my truck.
Should i take it down?
I don't want to. Don't ask why.
My reasonings are confusing.
I am sorry. I do care.

I want to scream, run, laugh, cry.
It is all a blur.
Life. It goes by too fast.

They do not understand.
They force me to go.
I don't listen. As always.
They want me to be who I am not.
Who I can not be.
Who I don't want to be.

I want to leave in hopes it will all get better. Soon.
It seems to run away from my problems.
It solves them for the time being.

I would like to say I am done.
But the truth of the matter is...
It has just begun.

A little piece of me died today.

I wake up.
Turn on my tv.
MTV is on.
Chris Brown "Deuces"
Nice song to wake up to?
I text her.
Ask if she on her way.
My heart stars to pound.
I shake a little.
The dogs go crazy.
I know some one is here.
I know it is her.
She walks in.
It hurts to look her in the eye.
What happened next will kill a little part of me forever.
She said I don't care.
Lies.
I will always care.
Did i want this to happen?
Fuck NO!
It hurt.
A lot more than i thought.
You will always be on my mind.
Always on my heart.
I never lied when i said I loved you.
I really am sorry........

What Happens Next?

I miss the new.
I want it back.
But yet I don't.
I'm ready for change.
I'm ready for life.
What it has to offer.
It was nice.
While it lasted.
Things got old.

What if I am?
I told you I'm curious.
How do i find out?
It's probably nothing, right?

I talked to that person.
We used to know,
It felt nice.
To say hello.

This may not make sense.
It does to me.
So you tell me.
What happens next?
Who the hell knows.
Lets wait and see.

The sky is our limit and we are half way there.

I am just a young "adult".
Learning how to adapt.
Things change.
The oold leave and the new come.
I miss it.
I miss you.

She is always by my side.
Always has been.
The best condiment selection.
That would be us.

School is different.
What am I doing?
I should know better.
Or should I?
I am living life.
Durrin me!


I love you.
You should know that. 
The future is going to be great.

"She dont believe in shooting stars."
I think i can change that.

And Then There Was One?

So much to say. So much to listen to. Life goes on.
I guess I will be ok.
Who are you to judge me?
I will let it out sooner or later.
I missed you.
Now it is just there.
I am sorry if I cause you the stress.
I dont know what i am getting at.
tonight sucked.,
this week sucked.
when will my turn come?

I Love Ketchup and Mustard

I wish it was that easy.
Things Just keep coming up.
It will stop soon, I guess.
Wish me luck?

Who really knows.

I am sorry.

-G

As they come and go, You will remain.

My thoughts travel.
You are in them.
So many things come up.
They are all over the place.
Good...
Bad...
All of the emotions.
As I sit and try to consentrate.
You are on my mind.
You wont leave.
I do not want you to.
But at the same time,
I do.
My feelings will always remain the same.
You are the best.
I guess we will leave it at that.
One more time....

I love you.