Life. Lately.

Ha.
It is a funny story.
Reconnecting.
Talking.
Laughing.

It just feels good.
To talk to you after so long.
I missed you.
This is true.
I will not let you go.

And of course I can not forget about you.
Getting back together was pretty awesome.
It feels like it has been years since the last time we talked.
It is good.
To have someone who understands on a different level.

Being friends was the best idea we could have come up with.
I couldn't imagine life without you in it.
We have known each other the shortest,
But it feels like we have known each the longest.
I will always have you in my life.
No matter what.

And then there is you.
You never really left.
But it felt like you did.
Not necessarily your fault.
At all actually.
I am sorry.
I still love you more than anything!
You can always count on me.

I am going down this path in life, I am afraid of where it is going to take me. I know it will be for the better. I love where I am right now.  Life just keeps throwing me surprises, and I am taking every one as they come. I do not know what to expect next and I want to keep it that way. Life, as I knew it, is over. But this new thing, I can get used to. I am growing up. We are growing up. It's simply epic. You're epic.

You're the best!
Your smile brightens up my day.
Your voice comforts me.
Your thoughts intrigue me.
Your personality amuses me.
Your relationship makes me jealous.
I don't mean to put you on a pedestal,
But, right now, I'll let it slide.  

Without. You.

this is a new year.
but nothing feels different.
Except the fact that I am missing you.
more than I ever should.
I love you.
and no one seems to understand this.
our relationship is legit.
you are the only one I think about every single day of my life.
my life just is not the same without you in it.
I miss seeing you day to day.
now, it is week to week.
we actually have to try to see each other.
and make plans.
this summer will change that.
I love you, and cannot wait to see where our lives take us.
because, I know for a fact, you will always be in mine!

Emergancy. Medical. Technician.

This week is the end.
It doesn't seem like ithas been 4 months.
I am really excited to see where life is taking me next.
This past week has been really stressful.
Yet one of the best.
I love the way life is working out.

A. Little. Into. My. Thoughts.

I am starting to rethink everything.
You lie to much.
I am tired of the way things are.
We need to fix this ASAP.
I miss you.
I honestly don't care anymore.
It is what it is.
You used to be my all.
My life is awesome. But it has it's moments. I want you in them. For most people, life can be a breeze. I feel as though mine will make me so much stronger than 80% of others. The struggles. It has all been worth every bit. I will become something so much better than you. I still love you. Just saying. I am tired. Tired of being judged for who I am and who I want to be. You have always put me down. In every way imagined. It is my turn to shine now. Are you ready for what I have to offer?

idon'tthinksoo.

It. Takes. Two. To. Tango.

I creep on your page.
I read your updates.
It hurts inside.
To see that you hurt.
I wish I could help.
Say something incouraging.
But I know it wont matter.
He will get upset.
I tried to be there.
You failed on your half.
I know it is rough.
But it takes two to make a friendship last.
And I am done trying.
Trying to be the only one making it work.
I guess it is what it is.

Figure. Me. Out.

I am tired of being judged.
Take me for what I am.
Or leave me.

I wont change for you.
Not now, not never.

I love you.
But that is not a deal breaker for me.

I have said this before.
I am me.
If that is not good enough for you.
Then I am truely sorry.

You will be missing out on something great.

The grass is not always greener on  the other side.
So for once.
Stay on this side?
With me?

Once. Upon. A. Time.

I nerver ment for me to upset you.
My intentions were good.
They are good.
I am living life.
You will always be apart of my ride.
You will be in the passenger seat the intire time.
You are the reason I am who I am.

We are unbeatable.
We are as one.
We are like no others.
People are jealous of us.
They wish they could be just like us.

Everything I do, I hope for your approval.
I try to make you happy.
I fail 23/7.
My thoughts are filled with you.

I love you.